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[04 Mar 2007|06:12pm] |
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-points to the "Dance" icon in place for meh user-
I did!, for the most part. A can truely say that is the most dancing I have done at any dance ever. It was inexplicably fun except for one tinsey thing (see later in post). I didn't get to dance with Leslie, Rapho, Gabi, or Neesha - who was so freaking sparkly! - but I did dance with Joanna, Shelly, Christine, Alicyn, Ashley....uh...I showed Kenny how to waltz....AND JARED! No matter what dance I go to, I always dance at least once with Jared. He's what makes it fun again when something tries to ruin my night, and I am infinetly grateful to him for that. THANK YOU SO MUCH JARED! You know, he's probably the only guy I'd feel comfortable dancing close with. It was the best dance I have ever been to. And I finally did dance to some "grind" songs, though I didn't necessarily "grind" per say. Rapho and Leslie left early, but they did dance quite a bit and I am so glad they did. Ignore everyone else and just GO :) I'm going to miss those IB dances. Maybe I can come back when I'm in college? I think I saw an IB graduate there, so it's a possibility! We'll see. I want to go again!
As for the thing that almost ruined my night. Yeah, about that... Joanna pulled me quite willingly out onto the floor to dance to a song by the black eyed peas I think, and we had just danced three songs in a row (Joanna, Shelly and I) and were going right into the fourth full blast when I feel something behind me and see some movement out of the corner of my eye and look to see that it's Coates dancing up to us, or maybe it was me since he kind of grabbed my hand and tried to dance with me. For those of you who know about that thing that happened to me when I was really young, you know why I like my personal bubble distance around guys. It hardly exists for my girl friends, and there are very few guys I allow to by pass it (like Rapho, Kenny, Jared). Needless to Coates is not one of those allowed to by pass Kiri's personal bubble. So I drew back and said "no" and vaguely heard Joanna tell Coates to get lost or some-such line. Of course the idiot doesn't listen. And he pushes closer and I have to use both hands to push his hands back, but of course arms bend and so he could come closer. I ended up putting both hands on his chest and shoving my way off the dance floor - during a damn good song [a "Pump It" remix, I've been trying to find the version they used for the T.V. series "Just Legal" for forever] - while pushing him away from me. Unfortunately this was the period of the dance where they played the songs I'd love to dance to, the real "hip-dancer" songs. But I did not want Coates dancing up to where I was again; you don't get it - he doesn't listen and I didn't feel like kicking him in the balls so that was out. He asked me to dance 2 more times outside of the time he caught me actually dancing. I don't know exactly why but under no circumstances would I ever dance with Coates, no matter if he and I were the only people who showed up. No sir.
But now I have to go work on my Calc and biology homework if I intend to go to UCF this week.
Oh, and my hair has been changed. Color wise. :D come see!
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| Busy, busy, busy. |
[01 Mar 2007|10:43pm] |
So, yeah, I've got lots of stuff going on tomorrow:
-Biology project presentation with Luke and Nikki
-Calc statistics test
-TOK 10-freaking-minutes presentation on stem cell research on animals. (It may suck. Why's the god-aweful thing gotta be 10 minutes! Why can't it be like 5-7 minutes like a second language oral presentation?!?! Grrr IB!)
-French "confession" poem [fictional since I obviously don't have an older sister.]
-French essay
-reshelving books is going to be intresting in a long skirt
-driving with Le'lie to Sally's to get hair bleach, red dye and black nail polish
-bleaching hair white
-math homework
-read Huckleberry Fin for English
-sleepover at Le'lie's
And then saturday:
-Robotics Red Cross certification session
-scouting meeting [or not]
-math homework
-typing poem collection up for BCTE
-reading Huckleberry Fin for Engish
>it looks like rain tomorrow and Saturday evening.
So what's your weekend look like?
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[27 Feb 2007|10:53pm] |
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List 12 people you know before looking at the questions, then answer the questions about them. The 12 people that you chose are then tagged
1. Leslie
2. Kylie
3. Maia
4. Neesha
5. Raphael
6. Daniel
7. Coates
8. Kenny
9. Gaby
10. Chiyo (Leslie p.)
11. Ashley
12. Andrew
( The Questions )
| You Are a Lemon Cake | 
Strong, sexy, and overpowering.
You know who you are, and you're not afraid to show the world your fabulous self.
You're confident, charming, and extremely popular. |
O.O;; "Strong, sexy, and overpowering" (?) Sexy...sure...maybe. I'd love to be :)
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[19 Feb 2007|09:17pm] |
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I want to belong to a pard.
Base Drivers Trying Out = Greg P., Duke M., Kiri R.
Tower Operaters Trying Out = Luke G., Ches H., Josh H.
Human Players Trying Out = Duke, Ches, Luke, Kiri, Josh, Greg
Try outs for base were today. Tower = tomorrow during school. Human player = tomorrow after school.
I did the best I could.
| You Are 84% Sexy | 
Your Sex Appeal Is: Off the Charts!
Let's face it... you're one of the sexiest people around. And you don't let anyone forget it.
You're crazy hot, and you deliver on what you promise. You are definitely one wild ride. |
O.O;; .... really ...
| Your Birthdate: August 16 | 
Calm and understated, you struggle to express your love with words.
Over time, your partner learns to recognize your passion by the actions you take.
You're good at wooing someone slowly, without them even realizing it!
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 5
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1
You are most compatible with people born on the 7th, 16th, and 25th of the month. |
I WOO people w/out them knowing it!?!?!
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[13 Feb 2007|10:26pm] |
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"...Somewhere just beyond my reach
is someone reaching back for me..."
^ Hannah was talking to me trying to figure out what kind of guy I liked. So...yeah...
I'm tired. I'm going to bed to get up early to do Biology and finish my French Oral. Everything on my interum is an "A" (the massive amount of "A's" is still a shock to me) and the other two are F's. Calc is because I didn't turn in all my homework, which will be fine as soon as I turn in what I've finished. Biology....I have NO IDEA how it's an "F" and it makes me very sad. I need to ask the teacher what's wrong.
Oh, today out at NASA, the rain stopped, but the robot broke before we could practice, so we spent the time trying to teach Ricky, Rooter, Duke, Cory, Leslie B., and Peter how to play Four Corners. It was so funny watching Ricky trying to figure it out. XD, and Leslie kept calling Ricky "Rooter." I got them right even though today was the first day I knew their names :). Leslie...ignore the whole "Kiri is a "big mouth"" thing...Don't say anything. Jeeze >.<;; Sure, it's true, but sssssssssh! ^.^
Neesha and I were going to use Keesha and Niri for our nicknames, but we forgot who was who...
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| I gave away my weak spot and found my passion in life at the same time |
[08 Feb 2007|10:09pm] |
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( My unofficial name )
You know, I just thought of something: I gave my parents the perfect weapon with which to kill me. If they ever cut off my horse lessons or told me I couldn't be around horses anymore, even if it were "only for a period of time" they would have just struck me dead on the spot. I mean, I just thought about it and I was crying. I can't do that. Never see horses ever again. Never ride horses every again. Never work with them. Never touch them. Never. It makes me wonder what Leslie would feel like if Rapho was taken away, or her writing or robotics/enginering...or Neesha's mobility or if she were forbidden from astronomy...or Gaby's books and writing...or Ashley's theater...or fencing for Sean (I guess). Music and archery would not be enough to sustain me [I feel like a vampire who's trying to describe his need for blood, or a lycanthrope trying to explain its need for physical contact]. I feel wounded. I don't even know if my beloved friends would be enough to sustain me, let alone bring me back if I ever went under. And what the hell, with all the boys I just made friends with today. For me a few years ago, that would be IMPOSSIBLE. I'd just waste away.
SHIT
Please don't ever use my fear of the dark against me, please, ever, even in jest or as a prank. please please please. You all know it and I'd feel like I was stabbed in the back.
What do I do?
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| Could anyone see me as a strip-tease dancer? XD |
[07 Feb 2007|08:36pm] |
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You know, a few weeks ago, I almost convinced Kenny and Coates that I had a part time job at a strip club. Almost. It was rather funny, but how cool would that be? Oh, pah, I'd love to have enough confidence for it but sadly, I don't. I think I'd be terrified just to go apply for a job at one. I couldn't seem me on a stage dancing either. I'd love to, though. Or maybe I'll save it and surprise you guys one day. :D you never know ;) I have learned a bit of belly dancing, though. You won't believe the stuff the book talks about - nothing I didn't already know, but...:D
Nothing new happening in Kiri's life now. I have exercises to do for my horseback riding. It's so exciting! Sure, the saddle and pad and navajo blanket are a lot of layers between me and the horse, but that's what bareback is for. I really want to learn jumping. Not show jumping, but hunter-jumper class stuff. It's cross country riding I'm referring to. God, I love horses soooooooo much.
Writing a car chase is not as easy as it sounds - especially if your setting is centuries in the future and you've got hover crafts to deal with. But it sure is damn fun! I love using settings so far out of modern times that you can do practically anything. ^^ Or maybe I'm just crazy. Oh well. If I'm going down to hell I may as well go having the time of my life, right? Hm. Hell. If Heaven is all purity and clouds and fluff and sunlight, I think I'd get bored. But then again, who wants to be tortured for eternity? Why can't there be a parallel universe that I go to instead?
Ok, well I need to finish this book and do some Calc and English...and sleep. NASA tomorrow. Yay for Robotics! Oh, at the request of the boys at kick off, I have started the silk ties. Mrs. Nancy, Jordan, Mrs. Hicks and I started them last Sunday. I made my signature dragon again. It's black and pink. The rack is a beast. To think I helped cut the pieces...wow.
I'm excited about Vegas!
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[06 Feb 2007|12:32am] |
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I so need to apply for housing at USF. >.<;; I hope I remember to apply early enough to get into cypress housing. Ok, question, do you think I should apply to honors college? Or not bother/would it take away more of my time like IB? I'd rather go through "normal level" courses and get plenty of time for extra activities/sports than go through only high level classes and do only "well" and have no time for anything...I know it looks good, but I don't know if I should. I'd rather have more time to do physical activities. I started doing them recently and found I enjoyed them emensly...GAH!
For those of you who have read the first "Niah story" - which I have to finish editing and retyping - the second one is LONG...and the people that died...let's just say I'm going to hide when you reach that part...yeah...It makes me sad when I kill off characters, yet it must be done. If everyone lived, it would be over populated, like the old green book got to be, and there would be nothing for people to do.
Anyways, I have to finish history homework and English reading...I doubt I'll finish reading. 'Night!
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For the first time in my life I read a book that made me cry in the last chapters. It's a pretty darn good book. "Marley & Me" by John Grogan. Check it out! :)
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| OMG GABY I LOVE YOU |
[05 Apr 2006|10:27pm] |
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Your Theories entry like blew my mind away. I'm as parallel to you as I am to Leslie. That's intresting.
So this whole week so far I was nursing my poor mosquito-abused feet from the bondire on Saturday. If any of you ever EVER catch me outside in bare feet/flip-flops at night/evening in the summer/end of spring season, hit me and make me put on shoes. I cannot stress enough how hard it is to walk around when the toes of one foot and the whole other foot are swelled to 1/2+ their normal size because of mosquito bites. You have no IDEA unless it's happened to you already.
And that's all for now, folks.
One more thing: I LOVE YOU ALL.
[Except you, Sean. I am not at ALL happy with you. I will talk to you, but until I do something I really want to do, I'm still deadly displeased with you - deadly as in refrence to your situation. I have no doubt that if I were to spar with you - in any way - I would beat you no question considering how angry I am at you. Don't get me wrong you're brilliant and you're an awesome friend, but you could easily end up being the 3rd person in my whole 16 years and 8 months of life that I don't forgive. We will see.]
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| Question for all u guys [bottom of journal] |
[29 Mar 2006|09:11pm] |
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My essay is 1,499 words - hurrah! Now for Biology and Math -grumble- spring break + homework does not = break. haha funney. -shakes fist at administrators backs- We're going to Ocalla [just watch my sp is off] on thursday and friday. And yeah, sorry Gaby and Leslie, i can't be at the beach earlier than noon. I skipped music lessons last week to sleep so i have to go this week. I think i need a new icon...any suggestions?
Hey leslie, I got a message in a fortune cookie and now I'm content to wait:
"What you desire is always possible. It will come to you"
Hm...Saturday = Kiri needs to practice dancing lead else u guys will never learn. Heh, good luck to Danny and Rapho -wink-
has anyone ever turned up the music real loud when no one was home and sing at the top of your lungs? And it felt good whether it sounded good or bad to you? I did that today. And let me tell u, it felt damn good. Kudos for the writer of "dirty little secrets"; I <3 The All American Rejects. My sister has their first CD and i like to 'borrow' it sometimes ;).
One more thing: WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED TO THE LJ SITE? I had a nice setup of appearance windows and journal styles and once day I log on and i does't exist anymore. What is up with that...............?
Question for guys -- and anyone else who wants to answer/express an opinion
Ok, I heard someone say once that they didn't like a particular band not because of their music, but because that the girls go crazy and scream and obsess over the band/singers. Well, what if you [guys] really like a band and the girls have just recently heard of them and start obsessing/screaming/running after the band/singers. Will you suddenly stop liking that band that could have been your favorite? Why? Isn't it ok to like a band the girls obsess over if you're a guy? Why or why not?
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[28 Feb 2006|08:29pm] |
( surveys )
| You Are 32% Evil | 
A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.
In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil. |
| You Are Austin | 
A little bit country, a little bit rock and roll.
You're totally weird and very proud of it.
Artistic and freaky, you still seem to fit in... in your own strange way.
Famous Austin residents: Lance Armstrong, Sandra Bullock, Andy Roddick |
| You Are a Natural Flirt | 
Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt.
And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting.
Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt.
And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive! |
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[28 Feb 2006|07:52pm] |
Sorries to all of you for being away! Sorry emelie, maia, kaz, leslie. And this is rele pathetic that my returning post is as such:
"I don't want to do this anymore" as in life. school. parents. If they had told me before that grades were all there was to life i wouldn' have gone and made friends to hang out with. I would have stayed in the womp and killed my mother or had a C-section and forced myself to turn blue ind die.
I don't want to do this anymore.
Why does going to Atlanta with the team matter so much to me? Idk. It just does. My parents have never been to a competition before - so they don't get it.
Remember that time i told u I was seriously considering killing my self? And I almost did. Remember that. Well something's wrong with me cause i'm having those thoughts again. And they've only become worse.
someone help me...I can't even see what I'm typing my eyes are so wattery dumping out tears.
Yes i sound pathetic to all u macho suck ups.
I do'nt want to do this anymore...
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| I am alive!! Saturday's SAT may kill me tho... |
[24 Jan 2006|10:52pm] |
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This sucks, I can't do much with Robotics this year *sob* not faaaaaair!! I could rant in a journal that would take you days but i think i'm done crying over it. I missed enough of Physics sitting in an office with two of my friends (Leslie and Alicyn) crying over and cursing my unfair idiotic parents. They think they know me and then turn aroudn and as me "are you still intrested in western riding lessons?" Grrr...whatever - I'm going to ATLANTA whether u like it or not! Whether I have to pay with my own money and eat practically nothing the whole trip because I have no money left!! So there!! RAR!!! You have no power over me!!
I think that's one of the shortest rants I've ever written...
We're on the 6th book - and Kaz and Maia and Sean - 2 of u haven't even started reading and Sean...you're missing out on your awesomeness big time. Kaz, I'm not sure what you should be, besides that your character is always full of energy, and it doesn't take you more than a few hours of sleep to 'recharge.'
History lesson today was...intresting...in a perverted way...birthcontrol, booze and petting parties galore -_-;;; Mr. Hodge apparently didn't know what he was saying, or maybe he did, who knows?
Leslie and Raphi's birthday party last Saturday was awesome!! Though I have to say, I knew the murderer was me as soon as I read the clues for the first act. I mean, who comes up with an excuse that lame?? Ok, well it wasn't that lame.
Alright, now i get to go back to the detaild process of photosynesis, glycolysis, the Calvin cycle, Krebs cycle, Dark cycles, fermentation, the electron transport chain - Biology right now is so much fun *being sarcastic obviously*. And that damn history essay....*grumble* more busy work *curses* stupid IB. Oh great and SAT's are this Saturday...
BONFIRE!!! (still in planning stages for when weekend temp drops) Leslie - Sean if u decide to come at all - get your ass down here! You (both) missed it - I kicked Raphi's butt fencing with a bloody lightsaber a lightsaber for crying out loud! those plastic things have terrible balance X| ah foo
| You Are Rain | 
You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming.
Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you.
You are best known for: your touch
Your dominant state: changing |
What Type of Weather Are You?</d
ah foo - Love u all!!
Kitty (you say "kitty" I say "meow" but don't you dare call me "pussy" unless u think u have the guts for it)
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[27 Oct 2005|10:30pm] |
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48 and going on!*
1. Your name spelled backwards? irik - I think it's actually a word...like "to irritate someone" or something like that...
2. Where were your parents born? trinidad and guyana
3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? music
4. What's your favorite restaurant? don't have one yet
5. Last time you swam in a pool? omg...all the way back to the Robotics team party in like...may?
6. Have you ever been in a school play? yes, I played the piano for one of them too.
7. How many kids do you want? I'm undecided if I want to get married or not, which is the only way I'd even get pregnant unless some asshole drugged me. But if I did have kids, there'd be a Rabina clan running around with my animals ^^
8. Type of music you dislike most? uh...I'm what they call a universal music acceptor...
9. Are you registered to vote? haha, not 18 yet - sux for me
10. Do you have cable? no, and it sux, but only sometimes
11. Have you ever ridden on a moped? I want to!! I'm gonna get a motor bike when I get older!!
12. Ever prank-called anybody? who me? Kiri's an angel :D
13. Best friend? I have more than one
14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? BOTH!!! I wanna go!! One of my friends got to go sky diving and i thought "Not fair!! I wanna go!! I want to do a lot of things O.O the list is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO long
15. Furthest place you ever traveled? Ontario, Canada; Michigan Lake, Canada side at a cottage for summer with lots of my relaties. The grown-ups were gone most of the time so it was practically just me and my cousins[ all older than me :( ]
16. Do you have a garden? Idk if I'd have the patience for one...
17. What's your favorite comic strip? Kagerou
18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? *clears throat* ahem!
"Oh, say can you see
By the dawn's early light
What so proudly we hail
By the twilight's last gleaming
Who'se bright stripes and bright stars
Through the perolous flight
And the ramparts we watch
Are so gallantly streaming
And the rocket's red glare
The bombs bursting in air
Gave proof through the night
That our flag was still there
Oh say does that star-spangled banner yet wave
O'er the land of the free
And the home
Of the
Brave!!"
Well, you know it now!! NO I'll swear on anything that I didn't look any of those words up. I think one or two may be off, but I'm not gonna check!! That's what I remember.
19. Bath or Shower, morning or night? shower, preferably at night. Wow, I haven't had a sit-in-the-tub bath in a loooooooooong time...not really something you needed to know...
20. Best movie you've seen in the past month? CELLULAR had me leaping out of my seat at one point!!
21. Favorite pizza toppings? onions, mushrooms, black olives, green pepers, tomatoes. The list will probably grow as I get older. It's quite colorful at the moment. ^^
22. Chips or popcorn? chips
23. What color lipstick do you usually wear? most of the time I wear just lip gloss, but if it's a color it's PINK or this redish-bronze color
24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells? O.O;;; no
25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? with my body? haha, very funney
26. Orange Juice or apple? Apple juice!!<3
27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where? Well, here's the thing:
Gaby and Neesha - Carabbas - Homecoming night
-since I'm not sure that counts as "person", being a singular word, before that I'm pretty sure it was:
Sean - Carabbas - When, I don't remember. Looooooooooooooooong time ago I'm sure
28. Favorite type chocolate bar? Snikers (Have you seen my quiz for it?)
29. When was the last time you voted at the polls? Nev-ah
30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato? a while. We used to grow them when we lived in a trailer. Now our tomato garden is just starting to grow.
31. Have you ever won a trophy? Robotics, other than that, not yet, cos I suck at everything else. I got a second place ribon for sixth grade science fair that could have gone to state if only I'd shown up for the interview - I was sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Some jerk got my place
32. Are you a good cook? depends - Don't get in my way, it may be dangerous
33. Do you know how to pump your own gas? for what? car tires, certainly not
34. Ever ordered from an infomercial? no
35. Sprite or 7-up? 7-up, old favorite
36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work? yes, but I don't suppose volunteering at Cape Canaveral Hospital as the Top Supervisor for Transportation counts, does it?
37. Last thing you bought at a Walgreens? ...I don't remember
38. Ever thrown up in public? ...no
39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love? what's money without happiness? True love
40. Do you believe in love at first sight? ...uh, not really...I used to, when I was a poor ignorant child
41. Can ex's be just friends? yes. Too bad some people don't see it that way. For some it's either "I'm with you or I don't know you" a sad, sad loss - well, in some cases
42. Who was the last person you visited in a hospital? my grandad, when I was a baby, a loooooooooooong time ago. They both died before my first birthday, so I never knew them
43. Did you have a lot of hair as a baby? Well, I remember mom saying I didn't have a lot of hair, but it was thick
44. What message is on your answering machine? "call it and find out"
45. Where would you like to go? home. Not physically home, since I'm at my house, but home of the heart. I feel completely lost.
46. What was the name of your first pet? a poor gold fish whose name I don't remember and who died at the hands of my baby sister(at the time) when she stuck the ice cream spoon she had just loaded up, in the fish bowl and back in her mouth. She believed she was feeding the fish ice cream. Never let your toddler sit with a bowl of ice cream near an open fish bowl/tank.
47. What kinda backpack do u have, and what's in it? a black and pink MUDD messenger bag - half my folders, one or two English books
48. Who are your best friends of the opposite sex? uh, Daniel and Jared. Sean! but then again I haven't seen him/talked to the kid in a long time^^ Still a close/best friend tho!! Love ya pretty boy :P
*Wow. That was fun. I'm gonna add a rule!! When you post this you can add a question (maia you can still add one - please do!!) and people who read it have to answer it when they post!! If you've already posted and see the added question, you can either repost, or post those questions!! when you repost this one, you'll title it "49 and going on!" instead of "48 and going on", what'd ya think? See how high you can get it!!
49. What is the last dream you remember? uhm...something about a captive cat woman(me) forced in a ring to fight a dog man...o O;; I won, but I don't remember how...quite a symbolic dream. Certain people would time my being a cat to being a "Secuctrice" and the fact that I was fighting a dog man to that I was fighting the men who were complete and total assholes...
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[27 Oct 2005|10:14pm] |
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First Leslie, then Daniel, and now half the people that know me - that are still around *glares at people who left :P kidding, love y'all!! Anyways in explanation of the title thingy - it's been pointed out that Kiri:
1) [is caught now when she randomly] stands in "provocative" positions
2) Wears a Seductrice's clothing (whatever that means)
Oh, sure, watch out guys, I'm going to lure you to bed and charm those pants/shorts right off ya. Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight.
Ok, random Song of the Moment:
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray to far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray to far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life
because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
I'm not sure what brought that on. Maybe my dad? Perhaps it's a nine-year-haunting that's finally catching up with me? I don't know, but for some reason I've been feeling really down lately. Not sure what's causing it though.
I need to draw dragonz again!!
1. What's your favorite color?
2. What's your favorite quote?
1. Chrome&Blue, so a sparkly blue
2. "Be careful what you set your heart on, for it will surely be yours." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson
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